Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Assorted Thoughts

So I have a project to work, making some stencils for a friend. I am pretty excited about it since it gives me something to do and I am making a little money with it to, which rocks. I was getting really inspired just looking at different stencils on stencilpunks.org so now I actually have a few projects including a shirt for Skull and a bag for me (because I need more bags?).
Also I am making sloppy joe's tonight. I learned something the other day when making hamburger helper....you know how when a recipe tells you to brown hamburger you usually just cook it until its not pink while breaking it up? Yea, no you should actually BROWN it. Sear that shit. I have been just cooking hamburger since I was like 10, and since I started actually searing it? Everything tastes like a billion times better.  I think I need to start buying the big jars of minced garlic too...I keep telling myself that theres no way I need all that...and I just used half a little jar in a week and a half...
Also anyone have good ideas on how to eat more veggies? We have salads pretty frequently, and we make stir fry with a lot of veggies, but I have a hard time getting them in with other things. I just can't seem to get into making veggies as side dishes (such as cooking corn with a little butter salt and pepper) because no matter how much or little I make theres a ton left over.


Niko quote of the day "My baby doesn't have a brain huh?" (about her baby doll while watching the documentary Babies)

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Moms are not the greatest things ever (except maybe for mine :P)

So, these seems a weird way to start this since I am a mom and I am very proud of being one, but I don't think that moms are the greatest things ever. Sure we are usually the primary care takers of our children (but a big kudos to all those single dads and stay at home dads out there, you guys rock) and thats a lot of work as is maintaining a clean and sane household but, still when it comes down to it? Yea.
I am sick and tired of the "I do blah blah blah and I love it because I am a MOM" "I look like crap at all times but its OK because I am a MOM" self congratulatory type posts on Facebook. Listen, people have been moms for literally as long as there have been people, you are probably a better mom then some of other moms that have existed, you are probably not as good of a mom as others. We all do the best that we can but come on, really? I mean its not like you discovered a cure for cancer, you squeezed out a kid. Kids are pretty hard to completely mess up, I mean unless you are a TOTAL nutbag they pretty much turn out OK (or they don't, but you probably couldn't have prevented that). When I see those oft copied and pasted paragraphs I don't think "Oh wow, what a proud and courageous woman and mother she is" I usually think more of "Oh god, that one again? We get it, you have been crapped on by your kids and you have to do a lot of shit everyday, none of which apparently involve putting on real pants."
By all means, keep putting up pictures of your kids, telling stories about them, complaining about all the chores that still need done and how your husband doesn't appreciate all that you do, but we can we put the stupid forwarded messages?
On top of all that, I just want to add that I think that a shout out TO your mom or acknowledgement of good mom-edness from your kids is approximately 1 BILLION times better then those things are anyways. So thank you to my awesome mom for putting up with my dozens of panicked phone calls over the last few years, for understanding that every once in a while its OK to have a mental health day and go to the movies and leave the dishes for tomorrow, for trying her best to make sure I did my work and did my best, and for allowing everyone around her to notice how awesome and hard working she is as opposed to having to point it out to them all the time. I promise Mom, I will look into that cruise for you and dad, but I will find one with a spa, just for you.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Updates

Ok, so I am not off to a good start, but today was pretty good. I took my vitamins (Skull reminded me, I think he tires of my constant lack of energy) and I went grocery shopping and got lots of fruit and veggies (forgot raisins though) and now I am making a BIG pot of tomato sauce, but the fruit/veggie count for today (including what I will have with dinner) is 3 servings..unless I have some salad with dinner....that would bring it to 4...maybe fruit for dessert? that would be 5.  Hmm, I just looked up the food pyramid and for my height, weight and activity level I should eat 8  1/2 cup servings of fruits and veggies each day (3 servings fruit, 5 veg)....I think I will stick with 5 for now...
Also I didn't exercise today, other then walking to Food 4 Less and I said that doesn't count nor was I up before 9...or even 10...but this will be a meat free dinner YEA

Sunday, December 26, 2010

I have returned

Fear not, o faithful blog readers, for I have returned! I have been a little absent lately mostly because of being busy at work and well, kind of lazy and also, lets be honest I am a pretty boring person so its not like I have tons to write about. Anyway, I have also been sick, and in being sick I thought about myself when I am healthy and realized that I am not very healthy....even while...being...healthy. So I have vowed to myself to make some changes in my life (these are NOT New Years Resolutions btw, their timing is coincidental) and they are:

1) I will wake up by 9 am everyday (shut up Dad, that is an accomplishment)
2) I will spend 15 minutes of each day engaging in activity for activities sake (aka dancing, yoga stretching...but walking to work does not count)
3) I will actively try to consume 5 servings of fruits and veggies every day
4) I will remember to take my vitamins
5) I will complete at least 1 craft project a week
6) I will have at least 1 meat free night a week


Looking at it seems like a lot but its just 4 things each day and 2 things each week, each just a little bit of a change from my current schedule (ie waking up at 9 instead of 10, having raisins instead of gummy snacks etc).
The reason I am telling you this? I really need someone to keep me accountable...so please just poke at me every once in a while, and I will try and make updates on here.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Beki: An Introduction

I have decided to start a blog, I guess thats a little self evident though. I have been slowly going crazy over the last 2 years from not really having any kind of an outlet for my thoughts so I submit them now to the great wide world of the internet, mostly just to get them out of my head. I have no illusions of grandeur, this blog will not make me a millionaire, or even cause me to reach the lower middle class, it won't make me famous, I will be entirely shocked if its read by someone who isn't related to me, but it is what it is.  I make no promises to post regularly either, and I may recycle things I have written else where, but here it is....enough grand-standing lets get to business.


Today I started feeling normal again. Over the last year or so I have been feeling less and less like myself, it started with a bit of depression, I kind of moped about, listened to a lot of Alkaline Trio and The Cure and went about life. Then it got worse, but in a weird way, I didn't start harboring any destructive tendencies or anything like that, I just kind of...stopped. I stopped listening to music almost entirely (very odd for me), I stopped cooking unless I had to, and even then what I made was easy and without inspiration. Anyway, I am starting to feel that lift now, I attribute it to changing jobs mostly. I really felt like cooking today, I am excited to make something again tomorrow and I was listening to music while I did it! OK, so its still Alkaline Trio and The Cure but I think thats more to be mellowing out in my old age then being depressed. Anyway, I have lost my train of thought since Skull came home and we are going to go watch Diary of a Wimpy Kid so I will big you adieu and leave you with this bouquet of parentheses (((((((()))))))) (and if you understand the reference, I am your eternal friend).